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Boy this is going to get interesting.

So almost 2 years ago, I broke up with my girlfriend. Not a great start.

We were dating for 4 years. I was 19 at the time, and she was 18 at the time.

When we first started dating, she used to have seizures every now and then. Not like constantly. But just kinda off and on.

After 2 years, we have moved in together, and they went away. I don’t know how I didn’t notice it at the time. I didn’t really know how seizures worked.

One night, we decide to try mushrooms for the first time. And its an amazing time. We watched the ending of Regular Show, which made us CRY. But the ending song was David Bowie’s Heros. And we were JAMMING to that song. So I played it on our speaker, and we were just having a great time. We were dancing in the kitchen trying to make a couple sandwiches for almost 2 hour. It was beautiful. How we moved together, how we felt. It was great.

We finally make our sandwiches, and we start to come down from the high. And she says she wants to tell me something. She wants to be completely honest with me.

Apparently, when we first started dating, she faked those seizures to see if she could trust me. All of them. For 2 years.

This left a sour taste in my mouth that I hated.

So, I held my real feelings in, and decided to try and work though it. And it was not working. I couldn’t take it anymore. I told her I wanted to break up, and she moved out the next day.

I gave up alot to be with this girl. And sacrificed much more to keep her. And it was for nothing.

So now im 25. And I cannot trust anyone. I believe everything a woman tells me is a lie. And I do not know how to heal from this.